Yet another week has passed
So yet another sunday and it feels, well not good but not bad either I guess. I have got to work a lot more this week and i'm very glad for that, it was a great boost in the oterwise so lazy days. On friday I worked at the live performance by The Hives, even though they're not my favorite band I really liked the show and I must say that beeing called one of the greatest livebands in the world is not a understatement, such energy and contact with the crowd is not something that comes easily. Yesterday really didn't start good at work, an hour before I was supposed to start my boss called and said that we had to go and get icecubes from other local clubs since one of our machines was broken and as you might guess, no ice = no good drinks. The troubles didn't end there i'm afraid, we soon realised that we might be out of both milk and sweet & sour mix but fortunetly we managed to somehow make it through the night even though we had limited resources. I was home around 5:30am and fell asleep maybe around 6.
Today has just been a lazy day, I visited work and chated for a while and then went to pick up my car to get home again to lay down for a while again. Tonight is just gonna be lazy and watch some movie and perhaps a "early" bedtime, we'll se about that.
Today has just been a lazy day, I visited work and chated for a while and then went to pick up my car to get home again to lay down for a while again. Tonight is just gonna be lazy and watch some movie and perhaps a "early" bedtime, we'll se about that.
If You Were Dead Or Still Alive, I Don't Care
Not Enough
I'm sorry I can't be the guy you wish for
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I'm sorry I can't make you truly happy
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I'm sorry I can't treat you the way you want
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I'm sorry I can't say the things you want to hear
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I'm sorry I can't be the shoulder you want to cry on
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I'm sorry my love is not what you wish for
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I'm sorry you don't wish to see where it goes
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I'm sorry not to be enough for you
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I'm sorry I can't make you truly happy
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I'm sorry I can't treat you the way you want
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I'm sorry I can't say the things you want to hear
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I'm sorry I can't be the shoulder you want to cry on
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I'm sorry my love is not what you wish for
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I'm sorry you don't wish to see where it goes
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I'm sorry not to be enough for you
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Speak Freely
I've just finished watching this weeks episode of House and I can't really say how to feel about it. The episode is about a man whom just right out of the blue starts talking about everything that's on his mind, his wife is especially scared to hear about his thoughts and all the things he has kept from her all theese years. Now everyones thinking "oh he cheated on his wife" but no, instead it was about things as he had lied about voting in the presidential election, thinking she isn't the brightest mind in the world and that she could cut him some slack now that he's sick. All theese things aren't big things when you hear them maybe but for a person to hear this that she thinks/knows loves her for whom she is and for what they have and then suddenly hear the thoughts out loud makes the relationship seem like a lie. This made me think a little bit for myself, maybe there is something as a "perfect relationship" I don't know but maybe some relationships have white lies in them that of course shouldn't be about breaking the true trust in the relationship. I don't know, it's so hard to explain it in terms that tells everything since I personally think that trust should be the main thing in a relationship but all this made me start thinking about it all. Please comment and share your thoughts about it!
You're Not There
When you look at me it's like you don't see me
When I talk to you it's like you can't hear me
When I touch you it's like you can't feel me
When I care about you it's like it doesn't matter
When I comfort you it's like you don't like it
Maybe I should just quit pretending and realise the truth
That even if you're there, you're not really there
When I talk to you it's like you can't hear me
When I touch you it's like you can't feel me
When I care about you it's like it doesn't matter
When I comfort you it's like you don't like it
Maybe I should just quit pretending and realise the truth
That even if you're there, you're not really there
Facing A Wall
Why try to talk when you won't listen
Why try to help when you don't want it
Why try to care when you don't even bother
I guess I thought it would help you feel better
But if it's doesnt I guess I should just quit trying
Because it's painfull to try when the one you're facing is like a wall
Sometimes it feels bad to put on the mask
It's like wearing a lie all the time
But the lie helps handling the people around
No hard questions, no worrying faces
It's hard to do it in front of friends and family
But if it helps them not to worry
Sometimes it feels like the better face to show
Why try to help when you don't want it
Why try to care when you don't even bother
I guess I thought it would help you feel better
But if it's doesnt I guess I should just quit trying
Because it's painfull to try when the one you're facing is like a wall
Sometimes it feels bad to put on the mask
It's like wearing a lie all the time
But the lie helps handling the people around
No hard questions, no worrying faces
It's hard to do it in front of friends and family
But if it helps them not to worry
Sometimes it feels like the better face to show
The Words They Leave Scars
At first they start talking to you, they seem friendly and kind
After a while you start to know them more and the feelings grow
They give you hints and they show you a curvy road towards them
You start to walk the road and despite some obstacles you continue forward
When your almost there suddenly a wall blocks the road
Despite everything you try there's no way in, it's a dead end
In the next second you see the wall get further away from you
You try to run towards it but no matter how long you run
The wall doesn't come any closer and you know you've failed once again....
After a while you start to know them more and the feelings grow
They give you hints and they show you a curvy road towards them
You start to walk the road and despite some obstacles you continue forward
When your almost there suddenly a wall blocks the road
Despite everything you try there's no way in, it's a dead end
In the next second you see the wall get further away from you
You try to run towards it but no matter how long you run
The wall doesn't come any closer and you know you've failed once again....
Rise An Shine Sunshine
God morning! Haven't slept much, the cough kept me awake for quite some time before I could finally get to sleep. When I woke up jess ad texted me and said that she wasn't going to set the alarm but asked me to wake her up when I was going to start washing so I called her 10 minutes ago and I think that she regretted it the moment she woke up because she didn't seem very happy or in the mood to get out of bed so I guess she'll sleep another hour or two. Well tomorrow is the Volbeat concert and i'm still sick so I guess it's going to be pills, tea, sandwiches and the sofa AGAIN today! I really hate just laying in bed doing nothing but I can't be like this tomorrow at work since it will be so much to do and so much running around so hopefully i'll get better today nad be able to work at 100% tomorrow.
Well it's time to get some tea, lay down in the sofa and watch some Lie To Me.
Cya!
Well it's time to get some tea, lay down in the sofa and watch some Lie To Me.
Cya!
Don't Get Near Me
Don't touch me
Don't look at me
Don't talk to me
Don't smile at me
I'm sick of your lies
I'm sick of your promises
I'm sick of you playing around with me
One second i'm so special
And the next i'm nothing but "one in the crowd"
I can't stand you anymore cause you break me to pieces
But when the moment finally comes you say you're sorry
I forgive you, but in a matter of days we're back at square one once again
I can't explain the feeling when i'm with her
Just fooling around and talk about anything
I could talk about her looks for eternity
But the words to explain her wouldn't be enough
There are no words that could explain this beautiful girl
I know the words I say also could be lies
And I know you have to meet her to see the truth
And the problem is that this girl is different for any guy
We all have our own "special" girl and they are never the same
Don't look at me
Don't talk to me
Don't smile at me
I'm sick of your lies
I'm sick of your promises
I'm sick of you playing around with me
One second i'm so special
And the next i'm nothing but "one in the crowd"
I can't stand you anymore cause you break me to pieces
But when the moment finally comes you say you're sorry
I forgive you, but in a matter of days we're back at square one once again
I can't explain the feeling when i'm with her
Just fooling around and talk about anything
I could talk about her looks for eternity
But the words to explain her wouldn't be enough
There are no words that could explain this beautiful girl
I know the words I say also could be lies
And I know you have to meet her to see the truth
And the problem is that this girl is different for any guy
We all have our own "special" girl and they are never the same
Despite it all, I can't forget
I don't know why, why is it so different this time?
Why can't I just let it go, just like I used to?
Everything has been said and I know it
I know we have come to the end of the road
And yet sometimes it feels like the road continues
But I guess it's just my imagination
Because I can't blame you, you've been honest
You've told me the end of the story
And I accept it, though I can't forget it
You've moved on without trouble it seems
So why can't I do the same?
Why can't I just let it go, just like I used to?
Everything has been said and I know it
I know we have come to the end of the road
And yet sometimes it feels like the road continues
But I guess it's just my imagination
Because I can't blame you, you've been honest
You've told me the end of the story
And I accept it, though I can't forget it
You've moved on without trouble it seems
So why can't I do the same?
Walk Or Fall
You must show no feelings to her
You must not show any longing for her presence
You must not show her any deep thoughts you have
You must not let her get to close to you
You must learn that any day it will all be over
No matter how much she seems to care or feel for you
It can all turn in a blink of an eye
And that's when you're either left sad and alone
Or you were prepared and it just went away
It's allways hard to really open up to someone
When you have strong feelings and just want to share it
You get to a point when you realise that it can work or break
Taking the last step and opening up leaves your heart completly vulnerable
And it's at that moment when it seems like the world stops for a moment
Will the person grab the heart and care for it
Or will the person just push you backwards into the ice cold water
They say that you must be willing to sacrifice in order to gain sometimes
But sacrificing something so precious as your own heart is a hard choice
The decision is maybe one of the hardest one to make
To be able and show someone that trust is very brave
Because the minute you do it, you can easily get hurt
And if that happens, that scar may last forever
You must not show any longing for her presence
You must not show her any deep thoughts you have
You must not let her get to close to you
You must learn that any day it will all be over
No matter how much she seems to care or feel for you
It can all turn in a blink of an eye
And that's when you're either left sad and alone
Or you were prepared and it just went away
It's allways hard to really open up to someone
When you have strong feelings and just want to share it
You get to a point when you realise that it can work or break
Taking the last step and opening up leaves your heart completly vulnerable
And it's at that moment when it seems like the world stops for a moment
Will the person grab the heart and care for it
Or will the person just push you backwards into the ice cold water
They say that you must be willing to sacrifice in order to gain sometimes
But sacrificing something so precious as your own heart is a hard choice
The decision is maybe one of the hardest one to make
To be able and show someone that trust is very brave
Because the minute you do it, you can easily get hurt
And if that happens, that scar may last forever
Some people have no problem with opening up, nor do they have the problem accepting the loss.
Some people keep a small distance in the beginning and feel if there's a connection before they act.
And some people keep a big distance because they're afraid to get hurt and after a while when they finally open up the person is allready tired of waiting and long gone....
Why Wonder? Let it go!
Well I don't know why I keep wondering, why is it such a problem?
I know I this is something that wont be solved in an instant so why keep nagging it so much?
I say it doesn't bother me but right now when i'm sick and just laying in the sofa it hurts
The feeling of..nothing...it's just empty.... why can't I just relax and try to get better?
Cause we need the feeling of beeing taken care of, someone that cares, that's by your side
And I don't know why, I know that there are people caring so why aint it enough?
I know I this is something that wont be solved in an instant so why keep nagging it so much?
I say it doesn't bother me but right now when i'm sick and just laying in the sofa it hurts
The feeling of..nothing...it's just empty.... why can't I just relax and try to get better?
Cause we need the feeling of beeing taken care of, someone that cares, that's by your side
And I don't know why, I know that there are people caring so why aint it enough?
I wonder alone in a dark room
Looking for an exit but I can't see one
I start running, trying different directions
Trying to find something, anything
I start screaming but the voice just dies away
I fall down on my knees and the tears starts to flow
Suddenly I feel that i'm not alone
I look around but it's so dark I can't even see my own hands
Someone gently takes my hand and I feel another one on my cheek
The hand wipes away my tears and I can hear a low voice in front of me
"Don't cry, even in the darkest time and place, you'll never be alone"
Looking for an exit but I can't see one
I start running, trying different directions
Trying to find something, anything
I start screaming but the voice just dies away
I fall down on my knees and the tears starts to flow
Suddenly I feel that i'm not alone
I look around but it's so dark I can't even see my own hands
Someone gently takes my hand and I feel another one on my cheek
The hand wipes away my tears and I can hear a low voice in front of me
"Don't cry, even in the darkest time and place, you'll never be alone"
