Somewhere Over The Rainbow
Well a new week has begun and as I said yesterday I don't really have anything planned so I decided that I would do some laundry today and then maybe take a walk before going to Jessica and watch RAW Comedy later tonight. I look out and see the beautiful winter weather we have right now. I remeber last year when I was in the army we never had this much snow after I joined in January so I guess I should be lucky not to do it this year :D Well it's one hour til my laundry time starts so i'm just gonna sit here and listen to some calm music.
One song that really can take the bad things out of your mind for a while is this beautiful song
Have a wonderful day everyone!
One song that really can take the bad things out of your mind for a while is this beautiful song
Have a wonderful day everyone!
Birthday x2
I'm sorry for the lack of updates recently and I don't really have an explanation for it so :P
Well as it says in the topic it was two birthday celebrations today! The first one was for my godchild Ida even if her real birthday is on tuesday we had the celebration today. I had bought her a nice silver necklace but you know kids, it was funny for 10 seconds and then she was off for the next present so what can you do. The other birthday celebration was for Jessica and she turns the big year of 21! We had dinner at a local restaurant and the nine of us had a really nice time! It was me, Marie, Sandra, Jessica, Johanna, Anders, Rebecca and Chrille. So a new week now and not really any plans so far, except i'm going to watch RAW with Jessica tomorrow but despite that the week seems very empty.
Hope everyone had a good weekend!
Peace
Well as it says in the topic it was two birthday celebrations today! The first one was for my godchild Ida even if her real birthday is on tuesday we had the celebration today. I had bought her a nice silver necklace but you know kids, it was funny for 10 seconds and then she was off for the next present so what can you do. The other birthday celebration was for Jessica and she turns the big year of 21! We had dinner at a local restaurant and the nine of us had a really nice time! It was me, Marie, Sandra, Jessica, Johanna, Anders, Rebecca and Chrille. So a new week now and not really any plans so far, except i'm going to watch RAW with Jessica tomorrow but despite that the week seems very empty.
Hope everyone had a good weekend!
Peace
The Words. They Hurt
Some say that words hurt more than punches
The bruises go aways but words, they stay forever
It can take a long of time to make someone happy
But only a second to make someone sad
In the beginning the sadness could be the size of a small stone
But after a couple of years that stone has becoma a huge rock
Some words have gone through my mind for so long now
They are the words I fear to ever hear again
"I can be your friends but I can never be yours"
The bruises go aways but words, they stay forever
It can take a long of time to make someone happy
But only a second to make someone sad
In the beginning the sadness could be the size of a small stone
But after a couple of years that stone has becoma a huge rock
Some words have gone through my mind for so long now
They are the words I fear to ever hear again
"I can be your friends but I can never be yours"
Another veeery long day
This day has so far been the slowest in months, I woke up around 7 so I watched some CSI and Knight Rider and hoped I would fall asleep again but no I just couldnt relax and just sleep for maybe an hour more. I ate some breakfast and did some light training before watching some Scrubs and around 11 I went to work to see how everyone was. I found out that one of the cooks is at home with double sided pneumonia, he had to take the ambulance there because he coughed blood and was admitted for four days before he could go home, hope you'll get better soon man! Tonight they're going to show hockey at the projector screen at work so i'm gonna head over there to grab a beer and watch the game with some of the colleagues, hopefully we'll win and I wont get to drunk, haha!
Just to update you on some other stuff, i'm still waiting to get an aswer about work and i'm starting to have a bad feeling about it, I really need a job right now so I can start relaxing and get the anxiety of my chest. I'll maybe update when I get home tonight!
Just to update you on some other stuff, i'm still waiting to get an aswer about work and i'm starting to have a bad feeling about it, I really need a job right now so I can start relaxing and get the anxiety of my chest. I'll maybe update when I get home tonight!
Long Time No See
Well I thought that I will start to use names of the people that are I meet in my life, it's much easier to explain when you use names even if it's not really important it also makes it easier for you to understand the big picture.
Well I woke up at 6:am the first time but I was so tired I just checked the watch and then fell asleep again and woke up again at 9:30 a little bit more rested so I decided to get my ass out of bed and take a shower. The morning was really slow, I don't know but it feels like the walls are getting closer every day, I want a job so I have something to do during the days instead of getting lazy at home! Did some light training at home and went shopping at the grocery for some base products and around 1:30pm went in to town to meet Linda, and old friend from junior high that hadn't met for around half a year :S On the way I realised how beautiful it is now with all the snow on the rooftops and in the trees, it's quite sad we didn't have this weather on christmas. Well I met up with Linda at 2, we went to a café and just talked for around 3 hours, it felt like we had so much to talk about and it felt really good to catch up again after such a long time. Linda got a ride home to her place and I went home so now I don't really know what to do but I guess i'll do another training session and then make some dinner. Well talk to you later!!
Well I woke up at 6:am the first time but I was so tired I just checked the watch and then fell asleep again and woke up again at 9:30 a little bit more rested so I decided to get my ass out of bed and take a shower. The morning was really slow, I don't know but it feels like the walls are getting closer every day, I want a job so I have something to do during the days instead of getting lazy at home! Did some light training at home and went shopping at the grocery for some base products and around 1:30pm went in to town to meet Linda, and old friend from junior high that hadn't met for around half a year :S On the way I realised how beautiful it is now with all the snow on the rooftops and in the trees, it's quite sad we didn't have this weather on christmas. Well I met up with Linda at 2, we went to a café and just talked for around 3 hours, it felt like we had so much to talk about and it felt really good to catch up again after such a long time. Linda got a ride home to her place and I went home so now I don't really know what to do but I guess i'll do another training session and then make some dinner. Well talk to you later!!
Trust
How can I trust you if you don't tell me what you think?
How can I be with you knowing you might want something else?
How can I talk to you knowing that you might wanna talk to someone else?
I thought you could be honest and tell me what you want
Instead I hear it afterwards and how am I supposed to feel?
I can tell you that it doesn't feel good at all
How can I be with you knowing you might want something else?
How can I talk to you knowing that you might wanna talk to someone else?
I thought you could be honest and tell me what you want
Instead I hear it afterwards and how am I supposed to feel?
I can tell you that it doesn't feel good at all
Supposed To Go Away
I never thought it would last this long
The feeling of a stone laying on my chest
I try to focus on something else to make it go away
But just when I start to relax and start to think it's there again
Hopefully it will start to go away soon enough
Because it aint worh beeing bothered by it
It's just a silly thing stuck in my head
The feeling of a stone laying on my chest
I try to focus on something else to make it go away
But just when I start to relax and start to think it's there again
Hopefully it will start to go away soon enough
Because it aint worh beeing bothered by it
It's just a silly thing stuck in my head
Double Thoughts
Just when I thought it was a closed chapter you start hinting again
I feel that the only way to take theese thoughts to an end is to talk about it
I know it may be the last time you'll ever trust me
But as you said yourself, you have to dare and take the chance sometimes
I just hope that it wont destroy what we have now...
I feel that the only way to take theese thoughts to an end is to talk about it
I know it may be the last time you'll ever trust me
But as you said yourself, you have to dare and take the chance sometimes
I just hope that it wont destroy what we have now...
I Should Just Let It Go
How much I even want it, I think it's next to impossible
I should've realised it from the start but I couldn't resist
The message was clear but I didn't want to see it
There is a wall around you and i'm not the one to pass it
I hoped you would realise that I wanted to get closer
But I see now that you had your thoughts elsewhere
I should've left my feelings behind, because deep inside I knew it
Now, I should just let it go...
I should've realised it from the start but I couldn't resist
The message was clear but I didn't want to see it
There is a wall around you and i'm not the one to pass it
I hoped you would realise that I wanted to get closer
But I see now that you had your thoughts elsewhere
I should've left my feelings behind, because deep inside I knew it
Now, I should just let it go...
Realise The Truth
It's quite hard when you start to realise something that has been there for so long
Why didn't I see it before? Why did I look away?Why didn't I try?
I know there's nothing to really think about but for me this is a missing piece
A piece I haven't gotten yet, that I haven't felt in my entire life
When I first see it in front of me I hesitate, I feel that if I take the step I might fall
Sometimes the piece will just go further away when I try to reach it
And sometimes it will go away before I dare take the step and grab it
I know i've got to take the step and be prepared to sacrifice something to get it
I've got to be prepared to fall and get hurt but as they say, it's a big part of it.
The piece, is love and love can't be spoken to or heard from
You have to try over and over again to the day when you feel that special connection
The problem is that sometimes the connection feels right but turns out wrong
Those are the times when you wished you weren't so vulnerable
I knew that I should've left my feelings somewhere far away this time
I did it in the beginning but for some reason I took them out again
I don't know why because nothing has really changed
Maybe it's just that I wont realise the truth
The truth that the bridge will never be lowered for me to get inside
The truth will probably never change and if it does, it will probably not matter anymore.
Why didn't I see it before? Why did I look away?Why didn't I try?
I know there's nothing to really think about but for me this is a missing piece
A piece I haven't gotten yet, that I haven't felt in my entire life
When I first see it in front of me I hesitate, I feel that if I take the step I might fall
Sometimes the piece will just go further away when I try to reach it
And sometimes it will go away before I dare take the step and grab it
I know i've got to take the step and be prepared to sacrifice something to get it
I've got to be prepared to fall and get hurt but as they say, it's a big part of it.
The piece, is love and love can't be spoken to or heard from
You have to try over and over again to the day when you feel that special connection
The problem is that sometimes the connection feels right but turns out wrong
Those are the times when you wished you weren't so vulnerable
I knew that I should've left my feelings somewhere far away this time
I did it in the beginning but for some reason I took them out again
I don't know why because nothing has really changed
Maybe it's just that I wont realise the truth
The truth that the bridge will never be lowered for me to get inside
The truth will probably never change and if it does, it will probably not matter anymore.
The Great Wall
It feels like you've built up a big wall around you
Not many people are allowed to pass it
Sometimes you lower it for people to see more of you
But the moment you feel uncomfertable you raise it again
I know I might have passed your wall a few times
It feels like when you realise it, you want control again and push me back
And I can't blame you, I know where the border is and I shouldn't pass it
You trust me and I don't want to hurt you since I care for you
I'll try not to adventure the trust you've given me
It's just to many things on my mind right now
And I just don't know where to start
Not many people are allowed to pass it
Sometimes you lower it for people to see more of you
But the moment you feel uncomfertable you raise it again
I know I might have passed your wall a few times
It feels like when you realise it, you want control again and push me back
And I can't blame you, I know where the border is and I shouldn't pass it
You trust me and I don't want to hurt you since I care for you
I'll try not to adventure the trust you've given me
It's just to many things on my mind right now
And I just don't know where to start
Home again!
Ja då var man hemma igen, hade gärna stannat tills imorgon men ska ju jobba ikväll så det gick tyvärr inte. Igår fira vi min morbrors fru som fyllde 60 år och hade öppet hus för släkt och nära vänner. Vi åt och drack mycket gott och sen efter maten fick vi lite äldre ungdomar vara lite barnpassare åt dom ca 15 barnen som befanns sig i huset :S. Lite senare på kvällen åkte jag ut i byn med en släkting och hennes kompis som körde, det var självklart "raggen" mellan macken och restaurangen som gällde och stå på macken för att "töle mä fölk". Eftersom vi vänta på att en kompis till dom skulle sluta vid halv 11 så blev det lite segt så vi åkte hem till killen o slappa framför tvn tills kompisen sluta o så åkte vi tillbaka för kaffe, tårta, likörer o annat gott för att sedan bestämma oss för att det var hemfärd eftersom jag skulle upp i hyfsad tid idag och åka buss hem. När jag skulle på bussen imorse så upptäckte jag att min kusins dotter också skulle med så vi satt o tjata om allt möjligt mellan himmel o jord på bussen, gjorde resan bra mycket kortare. Eftersom hon inte är så hemma här i stan så följde jag henne till bussen som hon skulle ta till sin kompis och sen åkte jag hem till mig. Nu ska jag nog slappa hela eftermiddagen för att ikväll dra iväg och jobba på nattklubben.
Ha en fortsatt trevlig lördag!!
Ha en fortsatt trevlig lördag!!
Dagen i stort
Ja dagen i stort då, vaknade vid 10 men lyckades inte komma ur sängen förrän typ halv 11. Duschade, käka lite frukost o så åkte jag o hämta mina kusinbarn på fritids som jag skulle barnvakta till 4. Vi gick på stan, käka köttbullemeal på Sibylla o så fick dom sitta o vänta lite medans jag var på synundersökning. När vi kom hem till mig så satt den ena vid datorn och den andra vid mitt XBOX så det gick ingen större nöd på dom utan att jag kunde diska o städa runt lite i lägenheten. Nu har dom blivit hämtade och jag håller på med packningen för fullt innan min kära mor ringer o säger att vi ska åka till stugan. Japp jag ska ut i skogen till lördag för att få komma ifrån stan lite plus att mon morbrors fru fyller 60 år och dom har öppet hus imorgon! Kommer hem på lördag igen när jag kanske ska träffa en tjejkompis från Stockholm om hon kommer hem annars blir det bara slappa fram till att jag ska jobba på kvällen. Hörs på lördag! Höööjt!
Goooood moooorning!
Well another glorious day in life, the people from freakin Realcom are not here today either so another early morning for nothing, I can't really complain either because I think it's good for me to get out of bed early sometimes. Well yesterday I was at work in the afternoon and got a general understanding about how the bowling alley works, so in the evening I got to handle it myself with supervision of course but I think I got the hang of it quite good. So well today i'm going out with some friends to have a cup of coffe and after that I think i'm going to watch the local bandy team with a friend, to that's pretty much my day I think and I hope it turns out great.
Smell ya later!
Smell ya later!
Defenceless
Tänkte att jag skulle köra ett första inlägg på svenska, vill gärna höra kommentarer om det är bra eller dåligt.
Nåja för att komma till ämnet jag tänkte diskutera, ni som läst tidningarna nu på morgonen kanske har sett att våran kära ÖB Håkan Syrén tycker att vi måste skära ner ytterligare på försvaret, som om det inte är tillräckligt nedskuret? Jag vet att sverige inte befinner sig i krig och förmodligen inte kommer göra det de närmaste åren så det är ju ingen panik att ha ett ordentligt försvar MEN jag tycker fortfarande det känns lite drastiskt att skära ner 1/3 av hela försvaret!
"Svenska Dagbladet rapporterar att fler förband kan komma att läggas ned. Arvidsjaur där I 19:s jägarutbildning är förlagd, Karlsborg K 3, Lund P7 och Ronneby F 17 beskrivs i tidningen som nedläggningshotade." urdrag från aftonbladet
En annan sak som också är värt att nämna är att vi ska halvera antalet stridsvagnar när officierare i Skövde (P4) nyligen uttalade sig såhär "Stridsvagnen, en komponent i framtida förband". Jag förstår att det inte är officierarna som bestämmer om vi kan behålla stridsvagnar eller inte men man tycker ändå att kommunikationen dem emellan skulle kunna funka så att även regeringen kan få höra vad officierarna på våra olika regementen har att säga. De som i framtiden kommer att få göra lumpen ska nog skatta sig väldigt lyckliga eftersom om nu detta förslaget går igenom kommer bli en drastisk minskning på värnpliktiga. Ja nu ska vi inte vända upp och ner på dagen pga detta. Dom jävla teknikerna har fortfarande inte kommit och nu börjar jag faktiskt tröttna på att vänta så nu är det nog dags att gå ut en sväng.
Cya!
Nåja för att komma till ämnet jag tänkte diskutera, ni som läst tidningarna nu på morgonen kanske har sett att våran kära ÖB Håkan Syrén tycker att vi måste skära ner ytterligare på försvaret, som om det inte är tillräckligt nedskuret? Jag vet att sverige inte befinner sig i krig och förmodligen inte kommer göra det de närmaste åren så det är ju ingen panik att ha ett ordentligt försvar MEN jag tycker fortfarande det känns lite drastiskt att skära ner 1/3 av hela försvaret!
"Svenska Dagbladet rapporterar att fler förband kan komma att läggas ned. Arvidsjaur där I 19:s jägarutbildning är förlagd, Karlsborg K 3, Lund P7 och Ronneby F 17 beskrivs i tidningen som nedläggningshotade." urdrag från aftonbladet
En annan sak som också är värt att nämna är att vi ska halvera antalet stridsvagnar när officierare i Skövde (P4) nyligen uttalade sig såhär "Stridsvagnen, en komponent i framtida förband". Jag förstår att det inte är officierarna som bestämmer om vi kan behålla stridsvagnar eller inte men man tycker ändå att kommunikationen dem emellan skulle kunna funka så att även regeringen kan få höra vad officierarna på våra olika regementen har att säga. De som i framtiden kommer att få göra lumpen ska nog skatta sig väldigt lyckliga eftersom om nu detta förslaget går igenom kommer bli en drastisk minskning på värnpliktiga. Ja nu ska vi inte vända upp och ner på dagen pga detta. Dom jävla teknikerna har fortfarande inte kommit och nu börjar jag faktiskt tröttna på att vänta så nu är det nog dags att gå ut en sväng.
Cya!
Early morning
God morning, I guess you're all wondering what i'm doing up so early, well it's because that some engineers are installing new fiber cables in the complex and they need access to my apartment, but now it looks like they aren't coming as early as it said on the note, bastards. Anyways sorry for not updating yesterday however I was home until around 4pm when a friend invited me over for some dinner and of course I couldn't say no to salmon and potato gratin? Then we watched the movie Reign over me, really good movie, Adam Sandler plays a mental breakdown when his 3 daughters and wife dies at 9/11 (they are on board one of the planes) and Don Cheadle whom plays his old college roommate is trying his best to help him. If you haven't seen that movie, do it, Adam Sandler does a terrific role. So after that I went home a little after 9:30pm and then I just sat down feeling lazy, talked to my of my "brothers" on the phone, chated a while and then went to bed. So today i'm going to wait for the freakin engineers to come here to do their thing and then i'm going to the comfirmation meeting at 4 so talk to you later!
What are you guys doing today?
What are you guys doing today?
A New Day With A New Adventure
Well it's a new week with more empty days to try and fill with stuff to do. That really didn't sound very good but who cares, so today i'm thinking it's time to go out for a 50 minutes run or something like that, give the week a healthy start. I was supposed to try and get into bed early last night but as allways the clock was around 3am so I better start changhing my sleeping hours otherwise it will be just like it was before I started my army service.
The 30th of January a movie called Valkyrie premieres here in Sweden, the movie is about the attempted assassination of Hitler and is based to actual events in history. I think this is a movie really worth seeing and hopefully i'm right.
What are you guys gonna do today?
The 30th of January a movie called Valkyrie premieres here in Sweden, the movie is about the attempted assassination of Hitler and is based to actual events in history. I think this is a movie really worth seeing and hopefully i'm right.
What are you guys gonna do today?
Quiet and dark
I stand outside looking out over the area around me
It's sunday and the clock has passed midnight
The streetlights are shining down on the epmty sidewalks and roads
It's so quiet you can hear the water drops falling from the trees
I like to be outside nights like theese
Y
ou can just sit down and think about anything
Stare out at nothing while the mind goes to another place
Sometimes I figure some things out, sometimes I don't
But that's not what's important to me
Just to have a few minutes of time for myself gives me time to think
Think about how to move forward, how to deal with hard things is life
We all have hard times in life that gets in our way
The important things is to figure out how to get past them
It's sunday and the clock has passed midnight
The streetlights are shining down on the epmty sidewalks and roads
It's so quiet you can hear the water drops falling from the trees
I like to be outside nights like theese
Y
ou can just sit down and think about anything
Stare out at nothing while the mind goes to another place
Sometimes I figure some things out, sometimes I don't
But that's not what's important to me
Just to have a few minutes of time for myself gives me time to think
Think about how to move forward, how to deal with hard things is life
We all have hard times in life that gets in our way
The important things is to figure out how to get past them
A good day
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Well even though I didn't get so much sleep last night it's been a good day, we went out for a walk, went over to her place and watched some tv plus I got some grapes and I love grapes. Well now i've eaten dinner at home and drinking some cola, just having a good quiet evening. So a new week tomorrow and nothing planned really, we'll see what the week has to offer don't we?
Just to give all of you a tip on a new series coming up on Channel 5, it's called Raw, it premieres 2nd of February at 9:50pm and it's a stand-up comedy show with comedians from all over the world. In the premiere show we see Laurie Elliot and the swedish best comedian according to myself, Magnus Betnér.
This information and more can be read at http://kanal5.se/web/guest/raw
Well time to watch around some more, see if there's something good at the tv.
What have you all been doing today?
Well even though I didn't get so much sleep last night it's been a good day, we went out for a walk, went over to her place and watched some tv plus I got some grapes and I love grapes. Well now i've eaten dinner at home and drinking some cola, just having a good quiet evening. So a new week tomorrow and nothing planned really, we'll see what the week has to offer don't we?
Just to give all of you a tip on a new series coming up on Channel 5, it's called Raw, it premieres 2nd of February at 9:50pm and it's a stand-up comedy show with comedians from all over the world. In the premiere show we see Laurie Elliot and the swedish best comedian according to myself, Magnus Betnér.
This information and more can be read at http://kanal5.se/web/guest/raw
Well time to watch around some more, see if there's something good at the tv.
What have you all been doing today?
Oh my god what a night....
I tell you that was one of the best nights at the nightclub ever, around 1800 people inside so I can tell you it was packed with people. Unfortunately we were not really prepared for it so when we opened we had to send some barbacks to the closet and help them take in all the jackets and stuff. Well and as usual when the pressaure was at it's peak the same thing as allways happened, we were out of glasses. Running back and forth, push through the crowded bars and packed tables just get hands on empty glasses and get it to the dish as fast as possible. I guess that was all we did really between 00 and 2am, because when we started cleaning up as people left our boss came to us and said that we had to help the people in the closet again since it was total chaos down there, people that had lost their tickets screaming for their jackets despite that they know the rules, if you've dropped your ticket you have to wait for everyone with tickets to leave. Well when we had helped them for a while we went back up to start cleaning, there was so much broken glass i've never seen anything like it on an ordinary weekend, at least not up in our area. When we finally were done around 4:30am the boss and one of our co-workers had prepared some nacho for us wich was really good so thank you for that, much appriciated! Afterwards our boss had to go through some stuff wich I think no one liked because we were so tired and just wanted to go home. 6am I stepped through the door to my so longed and missed home, I took a quick look at the computer and then just dragged myself to bed. Woke up around 1pm, still really tired but I felt that I can't sleep away the whole day. Now I think it's time for a quick small breakfast and then im going out for a walk with a friend and then i've decided that i'm just going to sit in a sofa somwhere the whole day, not doing anything!
What are you guys doing today? hung over? :P
What are you guys doing today? hung over? :P
